Life’s ordeals
haha…. its kinda ironic… because i never believed that i can really fail anything in life…. self confidence ba…. or just plain naive…. how u see it, it never really mattered… its just that…. just the few times, or rather…. for the past months…. i realised that i failed miserably in sth…. LOVE….. haha….. or rather….. i like to put it as….. LOVE FAILED ME…..
everyone says that love, one must accept the other party for who he/she is…. she cant take my temper and expectations….. i cant take the fact that she refuse to be less stubborn…. so that ends our 1 over year de relationship…. sometimes i come to wonder…. can i just get a memory loss or sth…. or at least selective memory lost…. losing the painful part of life….. now she wants us to be frenz… but how to one downgrade his love for the person….. how does one forget all the promises and dreams that they both shared. all the plans that we weaved so beautifully in our hearts and minds?? i really wish i have a solution to all these…. but apparently i will never get it……
next is the most crap shit of all….. imagine, u did nth and ur parents accuse u of spoiling their com when it was their idioticity that reformatted it….. well it just happened to me…. thanks to my FUCKED UP DAD!!!! HE HAS NTH BUT SHIT AND SHITS IN HIS STUPID BRAIN….. and now i m left to salvage that stupid com for him….
i dont get it…. why am i always left to do such things? CANT U PEOPLE BE MORE INDEPENDENT…. EVERYTHING COME AND FIND ME!!! I GO TEKONG U CALL ME ASK ME HOW LA ISIT….. CCB….. FUCKING SHITS…. den the stupid mother who doesnt know how to use her handphone…. fucked up…. keep asking asking,, repeating repeating…. i m sick of this world…. i want to live alone…… away from all of u…..
last ranting…. back to her……
haha…. ireally love her…. i dunno wad to do…..
