haha…. its kinda ironic… because i never believed that i can really fail anything in life…. self confidence ba…. or just plain naive…. how u see it, it never really mattered… its just that…. just the few times, or rather…. for the past months…. i realised that i failed miserably in sth…. LOVE….. haha….. or rather….. i like to put it as….. LOVE FAILED ME…..

everyone says that love, one must accept the other party for who he/she is…. she cant take my temper and expectations….. i cant take the fact that she refuse to be less stubborn…. so that ends our 1 over year de relationship…. sometimes i come to wonder…. can i just get a memory loss or sth…. or at least selective memory lost…. losing the painful part of life….. now she wants us to be frenz… but how to one downgrade his love for the person….. how does one forget all the promises and dreams that they both shared. all the plans that we weaved so beautifully in our hearts and minds?? i really wish i have a solution to all these…. but apparently i will never get it……

next is the most crap shit of all….. imagine, u did nth and ur parents accuse u of spoiling their com when it was their idioticity that reformatted it….. well it just happened to me…. thanks to my FUCKED UP DAD!!!! HE HAS NTH BUT SHIT AND SHITS IN HIS STUPID BRAIN….. and now i m left to salvage that stupid com for him….

i dont get it…. why am i always left to do such things? CANT U PEOPLE BE MORE INDEPENDENT…. EVERYTHING COME AND FIND ME!!! I GO TEKONG U CALL ME ASK ME HOW LA ISIT….. CCB….. FUCKING SHITS…. den the stupid mother who doesnt know how to use her handphone…. fucked up…. keep asking asking,, repeating repeating…. i m sick of this world…. i want to live alone…… away from all of u…..

last ranting…. back to her……

haha…. ireally love her…. i dunno wad to do…..

I’ve been cheated by you since I don’t know when
So I made up my mind, it must come to an end
Look at me now, will I ever learn?
I don’t know how but I suddenly lose control
There’s a fire within my soul
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything, o-o-o-oh

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much I’ve missed you
Yes, I’ve been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, now I really know,
My my, I could never let you go.

I’ve been angry and sad about the things that you do
I can’t count all the times that I’ve told you we’re through
And when you go, when you slam the door
I think you know that you won’t be away too long
You know that I’m not that strong.
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything, o-o-o-oh

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much I’ve missed you
Yes, I’ve been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, even if I say
Bye bye, leave me now or never
mamma mia, it’s a game we play
Bye bye doesn’t mean forever

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much I’ve missed you
Yes, I’ve been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go
Mamma mia, now I really know
My my, I could never let you go

Say my name
So I will know you’re back you’re here again
For a while
Oh let us share
The memories that only we can share
Together

Tell me about
The days before I was born
How we were as children

You touch my hand
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again

We breath the air
Do you remember how you used to touch my hair?
You’re not aware
Your hands keep still
You just don’t know that I am here

It hurts too much
I pray now that soon you’re released
To where you belong

You touch my hand
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again

Please say my name
Remember who i am
You will find me in the world of yesterday
You drift away again
Too far from where I am
When you ask me who I am

Say my name
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again

Say my name

walking alone down the aisle with the watchful stars as your guide

wondering why your life halted with such a sorrowful plight.

for ages you wonder, for months you thought.

that he was the one for you after all…

as the skies opened and the angels cry

for you my dear their tears fall through the night.

一个人， 站在这孤独的舞台。。一点也不了解什么叫未来。

残酷的，迅速的，无情的，自私的 我们的世界。。。

lost my lyrics again…. fucking sianz… shall continue soon…

lets just put it this way… almost no ones knows me…. why? if they do… no one would dare to take music out of my life…. i owned a kind of sanity called music induced sanity… weird eh??? it should be, cos i came out with that term… find it stupid? go screw urself den….

its like… people time and time again tell me: music wont feed me fat tummy, music wont get u anywhere, music wont help u find a girlfriend, music wont educate you, music wont this wont that!!!

people…. please…. respect my love for music please… dont try to brainwash me like a hound or a retarded piece of shit.. seriously i am NOT…. its not me being stubborn…. i rule my own life.. i dictate my lifestyle, my world… but u guys cant accept it… why? cos u losers refuse to get out of your comfort zone… u guys have no guts to accept new forms of entertainment… music is my life… and i m proud of it.. so dont bother talking out of it….

now… a change of topic.. lets push the temps abit ya??

i have a gf…. her name is tiffany…. she is irritated with me.. why? cos i sat next to ker jia today… idiotic? yes! reasonable? yes… but wadever… so wen i sent her home…. she asked for mp3 to bring home! wow… looks like she din noe did she? nope, actually she does… she noes that she should never have taken mp3 from me…. i even bothered to ‘beg’ her for it… for her not to take it…. at a MRT station… i have nv been more childish in my life!! but wadever… in the end… did i get it? NO!!!! interesting huh!!!!! a guy giving in to a ger’s demands? wahahaha!!1 WHY M I NOT FREAKING LAUGHING!!!!  seriously… she of all people, my girlfriend for 1 yrs and almost 1 month asked: can i have ur mp3 pls? i want some songs inside, but i dunno wad i want!!! WOW…. i even offered to send her the songs online la….. she still took it anw….

so wad happened next was fun… i was so bored on the mrt…. with nothing better to do, i called her…. wad happened? i get scolded by her! why? her mom was scolding her… so i got it……. speaking of which, here’s the climax… as most of my pals noe i m attached to her… and for a year… but wads the best part… her parents and the rest of the family DONT NOE ME…. who m i to dem? just a tuition teacher who comes all the way down to SEMB to teach her her work…. classical aint it!!!! a bf to a tutor…. not a bf cum tutor mind you!!! so i got pissed and ticked her off….it was like wen she failed afa 2 sems ago, she say she pass afa i will get to be introduced… did tt happen? no! why? cos she say she havent pass… ok.. so last sem she passed.. did it happen? still NO!!!! wow!!! WHY? COS SHE SAID ITS HER COUSIN’S TURN TO BRING THE BF HOME!!!! so i waited… and in the mean time, my family knew she was my gf… i even brought her to my family dinner…. okie… fine….. so its our like 3rd sem tgt.. and i havent even met the parents… cool aint it!!!!

it makes no sense… u want to join my family dinner, i bring. u want to come my house i bring… wad u want i just do… but u seriously tink i keep my mouth shut means i dont give a shit, i dont mind?? please…. have more common sense ( of which sadly u dont ) so wad was the reason she gave me? cos i want to complete my studies first.. i want to complete my poly 1st.. i was… o u want to complete ur poly… SO WHO WAS THE ONE MAKING A WHOLE DEAL OF NONSENSE WHEN I SAID I WANT TO STUDY AFTER MY NS…. SERIOUSLY… IF U CANT GIVE INTO ME THE WAY I DID TO U….. DEN DONT EXPECT ME TO GIVE IN ANYMORE…. FUCK

差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分

遇上了错的人渐渐的吻在她无心的嘴唇
感觉像一个旅程走完了就分
错过了对的人,决定就只在那一秒那一分
爱情的岔口,你是我等不到的路人
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分
七厘米只爱”蓉”…
错过了对的人
决定就只在那一秒那一分
如果没缘分
我也会固执的为你一人
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分
“蓉”我不要和你差一点..

我不想有一天， 会有那么一天，我在k 歌的时候，会要唱这首歌。。。 我不想我们的未来是那么近，却有那么的遥远。。。

我真得不懂， 我该怎么做，你才不会难过，不会再怀疑我。。。 你应该很累吧。。 你说你需要一个承诺。。。 我已经给了你。。。 给了你我的一切。。。 就连我最好的朋友们， 我都一一的推掉。。。 我不能再放弃我的理想，我的梦， 我所追求的。。。 你说你没有安全感。。。 你说你不喜欢人没有理想，没有上进心。。。难道我要为了我们的未来去奋斗有错吗???

you want us to be engage after i ord….. then take sometime to do the wedding… u dont realise that its not usually rite to make the wedding wait… especially when we cant even afford to feed ourselves and our parents… its not about that we must worry ba… a wedding, an engagement is never a 2 person affair…. it never was….. its a merger of 2 families….  dont want all of us to worry, to live a life that we cant provide… i dont want my family to enter into poverty… never… i dont want us to have to fear that wad we will be having for breakfast, lunch and dinner….

i gave u my promise 1 year ago, and i still intend to uphold my promise…. i want to marry you but at the same time i want to do it at the most appropriate time…. i hope my heart wont be smashed…. cos if u go…. the knight of that tall castle shall close its gates from the world… and live in eternal loneliness within his cold hard cell, blinded by his world which shall be nothing more but a mirage………………… an oasis of falsehood…………… a life without love…………………………………………….. loveless………………………..

为了一根草
鲜花变黑藻
舍弃了倾城的美貌
不保养 不逛 不化妆
想他就睡到饱

干物女 走不出情伤
八点档 看到泪汪汪
他说的谎 满满塞着窗
房间早就没阳光

我来为你拆墙
拆掉满间荒凉
久违的凉爽
喝我炖的热汤
分手的伤口不痛不痒

我来为你拆墙
绑架你去闲逛
天黑看月光
我爱你 蹈火赴汤
换你瞬间开朗
………….

干物女 走不出情伤
门关上 独自零食趴
没那么灰暗 别那么傻
让我当你的的阳光

我来为你拆墙
拆掉满间荒凉
久违的凉爽
喝我炖的热汤
分手的伤口不痛不痒

我来为你拆墙
绑架你去闲逛
天黑看月光
我爱你 蹈火赴汤
换你瞬间开朗

我来为你拆墙
拆掉满间荒凉
久违的凉爽
听我弹弹唱唱
唱一首
你知道我在等你吗

我来为你拆墙
绑架你去闲逛
天黑看月光
我爱你 蹈火赴汤
换你瞬间开朗

我来为你拆墙
拆掉满间荒凉
久违的凉爽
听我弹弹唱唱
唱一首
你知道我在等你吗

我来为你拆墙
绑架你去闲逛
天黑看月光
我爱你 蹈火赴汤
换你瞬间开朗
用你的漂亮
用你的光芒
换我瞬间开朗

爱你的那一个 伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个 然后等待著下一个
最后哪一个最让你舍不得
感谢不能让别人来说
你给过我的　她们是做不到的
那时候的幸福是真的　虽然过去了
我们也都经历了
释怀教育著仇恨　和平劝著天下人
故事发生了便住下了　不管好的坏的
你让我成长了　就算是痛得值得
爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个　然后等待著下一个
一个个过客过得快不快乐
爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个　然后等待著下一个
别太多过客祝你早日快乐
爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个　然后等待著下一个
一个个过客过得快不快乐
离开时别忘了　看看眼前的人
流泪记住了　还是微笑祝福著

sometimes i wonder, is love a wonderous miracle where 2 fools try to co-exist in harmony or is it a cure for all love sick son of bitches and desporados?? seriously!!!

Jac has been msging me latelym tho usually i m left with nth much to tell her… asking her to move on she says orh but stucks there.. ask her dont move even worse.. haha… sickening… so here’s a lil lyrics for both of u:

Love aint no miracle or cure, its just something that worth the world fighting for.

treasure the one beside you baby, no one knows when will we go.

memories lingers, so does pain. responsibility is the key, to all matters in history.

baby rmb, its not what u can do to save your skin

its what u chose not to do that led u down this lonely road.

open your ears and hearts to listen, and at the same time be patient.

it aint no quick buck on the table for anyone baby.. so seriously, love responsibly…